Too much,, too easy,, too selfish,, too snob
to think that you know all the answers,,
coz you WON'T!
You just think that you have,,
Then you believe it, and lives by it,,
You think that all the 'ABNORMALCIES' people do or did is THEIR FAULT,,
You compliment urself way TOO high
that u had give UR BEST
But actually,
U DID NOTHING!
You did nothing coz you don't give ur HAND to reach out for them
Not really trying hard, I see
You did nothing cos you just hear them saying, gives them the
'U-THINK-IT'S PROPER' react,
then just forget,,
well,, YOU'RE NOT LISTENING AT ALL THEN,,
Really,
they don't need ur 'WISE' words,,
don't need ur 'SWEET-EXCUSE' even,,
They just need you to LISTEN,,
really LISTENING,,!
and TRYING to understand,,
They're NOT perfect,
and that what makes yourself TOO,,
Even IF to anyone u are, but u're not dealing with ANYONE,,
U'RE DEALING WITH THEM!!
THEM who LOVES you,,
THEM who's not at all perfect in ur eyes,,
THEM who you thought not good enough for u, NEVER,,
But, have YOU seeN ??
Have you seen those tears running, DRAINED,, for you ?
Have you seen their breath HEAVIER and goes slower
then DIE by your judgments and endless expectations ?
Have you seen they screaming out LOVE endlessly,,?
THOSE ARE FOR YOU,,!
and how desperate THAT they be ?
Seen their HOPELESS eyes ?
Watch them FALL,, but SMILING ?
Their bruises and cuts, but as pain as NOTHING,
cos THAT'S FOR YOU !!!
ALL THAT!!!
That,, that,, that they could NEVER be good enough for you,,
That,, that they've tried to reach you,, To keep you,,
and BEG you,,
To stay,,
To understand,,
but you still,
LEAVE,,
That,, They've tried, and cried, and bleed, and hurt, and lost,
for WANTING you ?
Just to STAY,,
and WAIT,,
coz they're TRYING,,
CRIPPLED,
but still TRYING,,!
And what have YOU done ?
You just think you've known it all,,
and "TIME DON'T WAIT",,u said,,
You just selfishly think for YOURSELF
YOUR pain, and how much YOU can't handle that anymore,,?,,?,,!
Coz you just SPOILED, coz you
ONLY WANT ATTENTION
Only want PERFECTION
Only COMPLAINING...
Just NEVER satisfied
But then, at the end,
It's just,
YOUR LOST,,
*Anggia Septiahapsari Journal*
lonely
confused
drunk
okay
grateful
